11 June 2014

Waiting

Sound poem for 'waiting'

Often I look towards you hoping you will be there smiling with crows feet
Eyes sparkling happy to know I am there searching
Shielding sun from my face and allowing the wind to kiss me swiftly
Over the horizons I gaze into distances I stand
Hand shadowing my eyes in a casual salute that's comforting
Expectantly I wait with a secure surety 
I know you will be there
Despite withering and drowning into the realms of ambivalence 
At times falling and sinking the pavement becoming quick sand
I wait for you 

Always you are there watching at a standstill and abiding 
Guarded stiffly ready on full alert 
Demanding respect and attention but especially some acknowledgement
For being there always hidden in the penumbra 
You wait for moments where you offer some guidance and comfort
Assured security you be
You wait

Bringing to remembrance the times when it was clearly you 
That took control intervening appropriately
Working and moving behind the scenes with a mental nimbleness
My supersonic hero
Promptly coming to the rescue 


Bringing to me a deeper insight of things
Or just doing what you do best and defend me in the spiritual
Generally I do not notice at first
But as weeks and months fly by I look back and reflect
Pressing play and rewind
Thankfully it was you that was there waiting
Just for me.



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12 May 2014

Tea and Park and Me At Eight




A few weeks ago I soaked up the sunny warmth in a park that was my childhood stomping ground.  With a cup of roobis tea in my hand, a book to flick through and be inspired by, I take in, in its entirety, my views of Acton Park (W3, London). I am taken back in time to twenty years ago and I am amazed at how just being here with its sights and smells unlocks files of memories.

This park has a special place in my heart and I can't help but feel a love connection, a type of home sickness that can be described as time sickness. The long summer days spent here when the days just dragged on and on. The soon-to-be-faded photos in 80's colour that sleep in albums creased by too many page turns. The change I have seen over the years with the various landscapes, the removal of dangerous old skool playground equipment for something brighter and new, and the different people that breeze through eventually making Acton their home. 

I miss my childhood years and strangely wish I could relive a day or two; savouring the moment and pushing a new burst of life into a stale memory. I often think about the things I would change about my childhood and there isn't really anything. My childhood made me the person I am today and that isn't one thing I would not want to change. Below is the poem I wrote on this sunny warm day.

I love you Acton Park and I love the childhood memories you bring...


At eight 

consumed in the world of childhood memory
flash backs
I sit quietly and patiently letting them be
Like breathing for the very first time
It's different and seems new this time round
I notice things I haven't seen or felt before
the patterns that gracefully embrace my dress
my socks they are odd, slightly, white knee highs
and I thought I came here with another friend
I had vaguely pictured blond hair not auburn brown

I see me at eight running around 
waving laughing plaits galore dancing smiling in all directions 
uncertain as to which way the hairstyle should flow 
I wave back and say 'Hi' and the eight year old me runs away embarrassed at the interaction
the swings is the place I should be

I sadly remember and yearn to relive my eight year old self
Just for a day or two
or those key moments that are reference points in my time line
I sit and smile to myself
happy with this place
peering into the grassy distance
I see me at eight fading silently away




22 March 2014

I Write...



Amongst the cries and shouts of chidren invading my writting cave I write
They are in here and they should'nt be, but still I have five mintues or so, so I write
Despite not knowing if writting would take me places and 
I suspose that is the adventure 
Not knowing where it leads and what doors open by continuously
Trying to fulfill my dreams
I write
And yes I do sit and daydream of going somewhere making some money and 
Publishing a book or two
But I am content even if the places I go to is just in my mind
Just those feelings of happines because I just enjoy what I do  
I write and enter realms of unknown and let my creativity flow for my own enjoyment I know
I don't even know if the stuff I write on my blog reaches anywhere or if people feel inspired and
Connect with that side of me I sometimes hide from the world because its personal
I just write for the fun of it and
In those moments of saddeness and there have been many I engulf myself with paper and pen
Or glide my fingers on a touchscreen 
Or stamp out tap tapping beats into silence and 
Get those thoughts out with tears and prayers
And let my pen bleed
I am not ready to show those poems to the world they stay locked away in my intimate space
In the place that belongs to me and me alone
Still I write
And I am excited by the different parts of me and
Finally after years I have found me and my creative writing identity
Fitting together in me like pieces of a puzzle
A part of me like the back bone that holds me
Just for the sake of it I write...


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08 March 2014

International Women's Day: My Tribute

It's another year and another International Women's Day - 'inspiring change' is this years theme. A change in this unequal world where women's equality is of unimportance in many parts. A change to the violence against women. A time for change and for people of power to promote and motivate a change. When I think of celebrating women's achievements I think of those who have suffered and have overcome. Who have - despite the hardships and the trauma they have been through - have been able to rise, to be an inspiration to others and kick sand in the eyes of those who tried to sit them permanently onto the seat of oppression. A place where the oppressor  tries to take control of their mind, body and soul.


Women across this world have been able to rise and a poem from one of my favourite poets Maya Angelou  fits this years theme of 'inspiring change' and my own sub-theme 'women rising'. The poem is called 'Still I Rise' and it has been an honour for me to create this sound poem.

Last year I read 'Possessing the Secret of Joy' by Alice Walker. In an author's note at the end of this book, Alice Walker writes that between ninety million and one hundred million girls and women alive today have undergone the procedure Female Genital Mutilation (FGM). Reading this book was an emotional journey for me, I have been aware of FGM for many years, but have never read a novel where it was the theme. It left my heart in tears for a very long time and encouraged me to do further research. It is time for a change amongst particular groups of people, a change of so-called tradition and for the voices of these women imprisoned in these groups to be heard. Victims of FGM I hear you! This is my shout out against FGM!


Sound poem for Lesser Woman

Lesser Woman 

Amongst the cries of death that sat smoking fags on the winds that blew through
In between the screams
Minor unwelcoming pauses offer no comfort as mind lose consciousness
Blank void empty vacant
Dead to the world switched off it seems
Detached forcefully removed from current reality
Although not oblivious to the pain that became
That ripped through with rage every nerve and tissue and skin and flesh and
Veins pumped filled with red blood
It sprayed and splattered and soaked and flooded
It dripped loud like thunder and shook that bloody hut

Every drop of blood that fell made me become less
A lesser girl a lesser female a lesser woman
Genderless a lesser sex by those considered to be a greater
A place stuck in the realms, in the middle of male and female
I am nothing it seems
An unwanted spot on flawless skin
To be plucked like female chin hair
Soon no longer two mouths but one through which I scream and I scream and I scream
Palms hold me down
Arms push my legs open wide
Eyes avoid locking with mine

Human flesh became a fish gutted by fish monger hands
They cut me they gutted me
Meat cattle a lamb to the slaughter
Shove me into a burger and you sell me like the junk food you think I am
Even a rat won't sniff me won't give me a second glance
They'll just walk right over that piece of me you threw out in the yard

They cut me
And celebrated the fact that they cut me
Under the banner of tradition superstition
The suffering of the girls and woman a taboo not to be told
Whispered in nightmares mutilation flashbacks
The attack on the very thing that makes me a woman
With a swift movement of the blade I became a lesser woman



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28 February 2014

My Writing Cave

I just thought I'll introduce you to my writing cave - a nickname I shamelessly stole from a writer on Twitter (Oleander Plume). This is the place where I enter my writing bubble to lock myself away from the world to write - well work on my book idea. I can write poetry in the other areas of my home, amongst all the noise and madness.

Since having a dedicated writing space the motivation to write and, as Nike would say 'just do it!' Has been surprisingly easy - with encouragement from other fellow writers, who have also given me kicks up the backside. Not to mention a real heart to heart with God regarding another commitment of my writing. My dreams, inspiration, gift or talent or whatever you want to call it must come from somewhere right? One thing I have realised is that the more I spend time to write the more I wanna write and the creative juices flow much more...

I feel accountable to this corner of my bedroom and quite protective when it gets invaded by items of clothing, random toys or books or stuff that needs to be sorted out later but for now would rest on my desk! Aarrgghhh!  

Anyway, this is my space, my writting cave!

23 February 2014

Sky High aka I Am Flying High


This poem/ spoken word piece is quite unique as I wrote this to a track produced by DJ Maintain, I haven't written a poem to a track for a very very long time. It was love at first listen and after months of stopping and starting the creative flow, hence it took me ages to complete (just too many distractions), I finally finished it! 


Now who once told me that I could be all that I want to be
That I can aim high in the sky
And look down from the clouds
And not be put down or looked down upon
Like a human watching an ant passing by
Or frowned upon like I’m just an add on
Something last thought about
A full stop before my name Traysi
An added extra like .com
See you later it’s the brake light
The last in the queue and
The last pick for the team
The third friend that’s last to be left behind
No that’s not me
For I am aiming high to the point of losing all recognition
In the process of a metamorphosis  
People stand muttering shading the sun from their eye
Is it s bird, is it a plane
No its just me flying by
Taking forward talents
No longer am I letting life stamp out dreams from newborn
Formed in the womb are my ambitions
Formed in the womb are my ambitions

Missions to be fulfilled
Destinies to be written
Tracing footstep prints along faint lines of pre-ordained decisions
Pre-written storylines
Making history by carving my life story on tree trunks
Lasting for generations and generations and generations
I was created to do something great
I was made and molded like play dough
Sealed with the stamp of the Holy Spirit glow
The seed of me was planted a long time ago
And I stand here today bearing fruit
And I stand here today understanding the importance of my existence
I am a part of the bigger picture
Like the smile on the Mona Lisa
I can never understand fully all things that are in-store
I have to keep on walking along paths of direction
Accept every opportunity with love and affection
I get satisfaction from pleasing the Most High
It is time for me to fly high


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17 February 2014

The Coffee Shop Writer


Today I sat in a coffee shop in London waiting for a friend who was late. Opposite me sat a man writing so I did what any other writer would do... allowed myself to be inspired by the moment and wrote a poem about him.

Sound Poem for The Coffee Shop Writer

The Coffee Shop Writer

Deep in thought as pencil caresses paper with words
The brushing of grey into curves
He writes posed with a frown
Sometimes the words flow they tumble out
Hastily no pauses they fight for white space
A sip of his coffee
A glance of his space
He stops and stokes his chin with the palm of his hand
Time to think what is missing
That's it and he continues
Flowing smoothly out of mind
He writes
The coffee shop writer

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15 February 2014

Love poem #1: I love you

I watched your lips move slowly
Parted you spoke softly at first
Unknowingly I held my breath hoping
Wondering what words you would say
Thinking its unimportance I let my mind wonder
Surprisingly the sky looked grey in mid August
And the park was strangely empty for a Saturday
The ducks in full swing attacking the bread thrown on the water...
Unexpectedly something you said brought  me back into our personal bubble
I stare at you
You smile and say it again... I love you.


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14 February 2014

Love poem #2: Are you...

Last night I made a commitment to the day of love and said today I would right poems about love. Here is number three.

Are you...

Adored are you and sort after is your pressence diluted into mine
Favored are you and like the sun circling the world you surround me with warmth
Beautiful are you and every inch of you pleases me and makes me smile
Addictive are you and where ever I go I need you by myself keeping me close
Loveable are you and you make it so easy for me to love you and know you love me too
Mine are you and that knowledge I hold dear hugging it snuggle until the day I pass away




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Love poem #3: Soul Mate Silence

Another poem for Valentine's Day (14th Feb), strangely therapeutic writting these love poems.

Sound Poem for the Soul Mate Silence

Soul Mate Silence

The silence engulfed us during the communication pauses
I expected the awkwardness to consume us
It didn't
It just felt like a full stop
Like you took a deep breath
On paper it's where the comma would be
You smiled I smiled
You blinked I blinked
Your fingers curled around mine
I watched your hand consume me
Then the steam that danced from my mug
Still there was no speech
A white butterfly fluttered through the crowd and landed near our table
We were distracted for a split second
And in the moment of speechless bliss
I knew you were my soul mate




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